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| Friday, December 18th, 2009 |
transgender
[ kacicake ]
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12:52a |
Confused and Questioning - What the hell am I?
Hello all, my name is Kaci, 17 years old, and I just joined this community yesterday in hopes that I can receive help on some issues I'm currently facing. I would also like to say that I'm deeply sorry if I get any of the terms wrong, or I say something that offends anyone. That is not my intention at all. If I say anything wrong or off, just let me know and I'll do my best to remedy it and/or explain myself. :) Anyway, onto the actual post. ( Cut for Length )Sorry for all of that rambling and what not. Anyway, that's really all I can think of to say about the subject. I'd really appreciate any advice about this. Current Mood:  nervousCurrent Music: Stadium Love - Metric |
| Wednesday, December 16th, 2009 |
transgender
[ jame_alec ]
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11:27p |
I wanted to share my experience since up until now pretty much all I had heard from trans guys were of negative experiences with pelvic exams. If anyone put off getting one for years and years like I did out of fear of it hurting too much, being too scary, etc, I'm hoping this might be able to reassure you a bit! ( My (positive!) pap smear experience ) |
transgender
[ jack0falltrades ]
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11:21p |
BioEntopic?
I know that a lot of non-prescription T supplements touted by online sources are frequently pure bull, but I was wondering if anyone had heard of/tried BioEntopic? I'm getting impatient and frustrated, and I just want some way to move forward. I've been stuck in Limbo for too long. Any experience to share? Thanks. -Connor x-posted |
transgender
[ kit_robbins ]
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11:49p |
Intro
Howdy all!
Been floating around for a while but finally decided to take the plunge!
I'm Kit - Kristopher
25, FtM I'm fully transitioned and have been for almost 6 months now. My journal is still in progress but in time will document everything I went though I would love for some of you to add me as friends both for my trans posts and my general life ones although they are a tad boring! |
ru_shemale
[ i_s_a_n ]
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11:20p |
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| Tuesday, December 15th, 2009 |
transgender
[ bbjkrss ]
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8:08p |
Confused with a question
(Don't know what tag this should go under. Will look/try to place it, but tell me if I'm wrong?) Okay, I'm feeling really confused/frustrated right now. Had therapy tonight, explained to the doctor very carefully how I've been feeling, and how I'm much more serious about all this than before. I explained to her how I'm willing to go through all the stuff, and even though it's scary/I worry about how it's going to go (paying for it, healing, etc.)... I wanna do it. And she seemed really accepting/understanding. And then she said that she still didn't think this is what I really want. She understands that I hate being in a female body. She might understand that I'm starting to feel curious about having/want to have a guy body. But that doesn't count? I have to have reasons for not wanting this body that I can't even imagine what they are. I've given her logical ones, and emotional ones (hate female specific aspects, and also "I just don't like it! It's not me/how I want to be!"). I don't *know* why else I don't want to be a girl, I just don't want it. At all. Doesn't that mean anything? I don't even want to try to like this body (though maybe that's just me being stubborn). I just can't see anything about it to like- well, I like it on other people, but not me. With "usual" trans-people (I know everyone's different, but the stereotypical kind, I guess), is there usually a specific reason they hate their body, or is it just a feeling that it doesn't "fit"? Because I think I'm missing something, and it's making me really frustrated. ...If any of that made sense to anybody, could you please offer advice? It sounded more like ranting than anything else, but I really need someone to explain things to me right now. Current Mood:  frustrated |
club_boston
[ jstatic ]
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7:03p |
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transgender
[ bloodfyr ]
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5:37p |
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transgender
[ zoeyprncs ]
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12:20p |
Introduction
Ok, so I'm assuming everyone has done at least one long "Who I am and what I'm all about," post I hate tradition; so here's mine. I'm one of those "in your head types." I can drive for hours and lose myself in thought completely unaware of whats going on around me.... no accidents yet. So to start this with a bang: * I am transsexual MtF * I am over critical of myself * I over think everything * I like that smell from a freshly lit match * I am alone in my own right I think that all can go under over critical. Everything kicked off before my last deployment July of '08, (of yea I'm former military) after years of failed relationships, failed friendships, unable to really relate to anyone and a nagging feeling something wasn't right, I came to terms with the possibility I was transgendered. Well my deployment through the Fall and winter of '08 was pretty awkward, since the more I accepted myself the more I came out of my shell which often came out in pretty flamboyant ways. I actually found it comical that my actions were often seen as ambiguous around the other guys, but by that point I didn't care since my term was up in summer of '09. In December of '08 I started seeing a therapist in Seattle at the Seattle Counseling Services after several months of sessions I was diagnosed with GID (Gender Identity Disorder). So ever since I've been on hormones, (estradiol, and spironolactone; a testosterone blocker) with seemingly endless results, and a constant battle between jumping off the depend into transition or wadding in gently. The greatest blessing in all this has been that after coming out to everyone I could think of my family and friends have rallied around me in support with few exceptions. My hopes are to finish my last year on my Bachelors complete a masters and become a councilor for the TG community. Over time I've realized I'm an exception to many experiences others have gone through to be who they want to be, so I hope I can be a support and boon for those who need it. ~Z |
transgender
[ katydido ]
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11:21a |
Spoken Word
Hey, I'm looking for a spoken word piece about trans issues. Alix Olson comes to mind, but I'm not sure if any of her pieces talk about trans issues specifically, or just gender issues in general... Thanks. |
| Monday, December 14th, 2009 |
transgender
[ cykotyks ]
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9:29p |
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transgender
[ awfulduet ]
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7:46p |
Trigger words
As the topic of "trigger" words comes up repeatedly, I was wondering: Does anyone have a list of these "trigger" words for future reference? The last thing I'd want to do is "trigger" someone and a list would help with that. Thanks! |
transgender
[ calientra ]
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7:33p |
Weird gender feelings of late:
I seem to find myself in a strange position of late... I'm feeling rather more androgenous than female or male the past few weeks or so, maybe longer if I really think about it. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm loving the fact that I have nice bouncy breasts, and the female looking butt to go with them... but as far as everyday going out and about, I never use makeup, I wear jeans and tanktops almost exclusively, and I don't shave my facial hair for a week or more at a time... and honestly, I can live with myself this way. WTF? I used to be so gung-ho on being 100% female... now I feel like an uber tomboy for some reason. Anyone got any insight/comments/tips for me? Crossposted to a couple of TG groups on LJ also. |
transgender
[ syvilan ]
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4:23p |
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transgender
[ lila_pelham ]
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11:24a |
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| Sunday, December 13th, 2009 |
transgender
[ shenth ]
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10:37p |
Small question
I have been trying for the last two weeks to get Facebook to change my name. It automatically rejects it whenever I try to change it on the Settings page, so I wrote them three e-mails, two the first week and one the second (filled in according to the protocols on the Help menu). I still have not heard back, or had my name changed. Have any of you had this problem? If so, how was it resolved? - Tobias G***, which is not a celebrity name or a number of words crammed together, thanks much |
transgender
[ grrips ]
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10:27a |
Help With a Situation
I'm looking for advice on how to deal with someone who's being passive aggressively transphobic, or just advice in general. This has been going on for about two months now, and the only reason I haven't done anything about it yet is because I don't see this person all that often and they do it in a way that is difficult to challenge, if no less problematic. I have some great friends who rent out the bottom two stories of a three story house. Sometimes we go to visit the people living in the top story, but one of them seems to have made it their mission in life to make me feel uncomfortable about my gender identity. Many of the times it's played off as a joke. For example: my voice has dropped, and they will imitate it in a mocking manner and then play it off as harmless fun - but the intent to make me uncomfortable is obvious. They will also, in the instances in which I am hanging out with a group of girls, refer to the group of us collectively as "ladies". They've been called out on this and have switched to saying "ladies", waiting a few minutes, and then adding quietly "and gentlemen". They'll also make me wait when food is being handed out because "ladies first", but only if I'm the only male present in the room. When my guy friends are there there is none of this gender separation. The list goes on, from loudly proclaiming all short men are insecure (I'm 5'4) to messing up my pronouns when they know I'm in a situation in which I will opt to let it go rather than make a scene. I want this to stop, needless to say. My first instinct is to tell them to fuck off and that they're not worth my time, but I want to continue to be able to socialize with the people they live with without creating drama. I'm not sure how to do it though. To be honest, I'm baffled as to why this person is behaving this way. They claim to have had a trans friend, but most of you probably rolled your eyes when you read that and I have a very similar reaction to that statement. Any thoughts on why they're acting this way, or what the best thing for me to say is? My friends have all noticed it too, and say something should be done, so I'm not worried about whether I should say something, just what I should say. I would really rather have the situation end with them being educated and understanding why they're being hurtful better, though I am aware it's a long shot. |
| Saturday, December 12th, 2009 |
transgender
[ daaarkminion ]
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11:15a |
So I live at home, with my folks, since I don't make enough money to live elsewhere (although I could probably live 'on my own' if I were to find the right place with the right combo of roommates). I haven't started transition yet, but it's actually on my radar now, and I'm dead serious about it. ( dilemma )Feedbacks to this mess of thoughts? |
transgender
[ auntysarah ]
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2:06p |
MODERATOR POST. ALL MEMBERS PLEASE READ
It's unusual, perhaps unprecedented to deal with something like this in its own post, but I think it's warranted given the magnitude of what just happened. Last night (from my point of view anyway), this post, henceforth to be referred to as "The Failbomb" was made by ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) chocolate13fire. Whether intentional or not, the failbomb served as a massive piece of trolling, and was entirely inappropriate for this community. Furthermore, the failbomb continued to explode in the comments of that post, and most recently in a second post (which I have removed). Normally we would deal with rule violations and problematic issues in-thread as they arise, but there's so much to do in this case that it's happening in this post. Anyway, after combing through the comments, the following action is to be taken: chocolate13fire, as the perpetrator of the failbomb, and for continuing to exhibit deeply problematic behaviour in the comment thread is to be banned from this community. o0teressa0o made several problematic comments in the comment thread, and apparently has not taken 2 prior warnings for similar problematic posts on board, and is to be banned from this community. eidolonamorata was extremely active in the failbomb's comment thread. For tone policing, victim blaming, being provocative, minimising the negative experiences of trans people, for blaming trans people for the transphobia we experience, for castigating people for not displaying an appropriate level of deference to the failbomb's original poster and for referring to trans people using phrases like, "You and your people" is to be banned from the community. eigengrau, for fanning the flames in the failbomb, is to receive 1 formal warning. levyn, for being condescending towards, and minimising the hurt that trans people feel is to receive 1 formal warning. jitusk, for singling out a particular community member for personal attack is to receive 1 formal warning. the5ws, for making a separate post which was clearly a continuation of the first post in a short timescale (a violation of community rules), and which read to me exactly like a lecture aimed at community members, liable to provoke a second front of fail, is to receive 1 formal warning. Furthermore, because it has led to misunderstandings in the past, and did on this occasion too, the text in the user info page which reads: The Transgender LJ Community exists to bring together people of all genders for discussion of Transgender issues....is to be amended with the following explanatory note: The phrase "all genders" has resulted in confusion in the past. To clarify, it does not mean "trans people and non trans people", as being trans is not a gender. "All genders" means those who identify as men, women, genderqueer people, androgynes, neutrois people, and so-on. Those who are not trans are welcome to join and post, but please reflect that this is trans-centric community.If anyone has alternate wording in mind, please feel free to suggest it here. In the meantime, we'll go with that. auntysarah, on behalf of the moderator team. |
| Friday, December 11th, 2009 |
transgender
[ chocolate13fire ]
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7:39p |
[controversial]
I understand this post is probably against the rules, so please feel free to delete if it is. I don't understand this community. I joined because my fiance is FTM and I wanted to perhaps gain some insight about what he is going through. I thought this community would be a friendly place to discuss trans-related topics and I was was happy to read about everyone's experiences. However, I've come to realize that this community is a joke. People come for advice and insight and are criticized for stupid things such as not being "sensitive" about certain terminology. PLEASE don't get me wrong. I completely understand that certain phrases/labels are offensive and should not under any circumstances be used. ( rant )You point fingers and rant that society sees you as an outcast and a loner and wretch. Perhaps you should embrace those who want to learn about your cause, and not make them feel stupid for asking about your experiences. -Leslie EDIT: I'd like to add a few things: First of all, I was not solely referring to cis-gendered people when I wrote of all the hostility I've seen. Most of the posts I have seen where hostility and criticism are evident have been made by transgendered individuals looking for specific information. Secondly, I would like to take back what I said about this community being a joke. That was unfair and I apologize. I would however like to add that while the idea of this community is one that I personally find beneficial (and I am speaking for myself and not anyone else so please don't attack me with some nonsense about how 'your space' is not for my poor cisgendered benefit), it seems that there is simply too much hostility (again, for my own taste, I do not wish to generalize). ONE LAST EDIT:Thank you to everyone who answered my post rationally, there were several commentor's that really made me think about some of the points I made, and I appreciate your insight. To everyone else, I don't consider myself 'privilaged' because I am cisgendered. And I am very sorry to all of you you see me as that. Perhaps I am an idealist, but I would never, never see one person as privilaged over another. Perhaps I have some things easier than others. Perhaps not. No one can really say. In any case, I never meant to come off as offensive. I wish you all well. -Leslie |
transgender
[ jamie_patrick ]
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8:45p |
sex
So I hope people can answer this question to the best of their ability. I am ftm, but would like to hear from mtf's as well. I was wondering if when you get bottom surgery (either creating a vagina and taking off the penis [which is what i presume happens with mtf's] or getting a phalloplasty) if you still feel sex the same way as you did before. Can you still orgasm? And does the orgasm feel more intense or less intense, or enirely diffferent than before surgery? Those are my specific questions--but if you have anything to add about what's differnt about having sex feel free to mention it. Also, when answering this question if you could say what surgery you had that would be helpful. Thanks to all who will answer! |
transgender
[ ironmysandwich ]
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4:38p |
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club_boston
[ christopherfbh ]
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3:22p |
"HEROES" in December 2009
A friendly reminder that "HEROES" is happening tomorrow, SATURDAY DECEMBER 12!Here's the Facebook Invite. As always, DJ CHRIS EWEN mixes the music - NEW WAVE, RETRO, ELECTRO, PUNKand some Old School Goth + Industrial
and TERRI mixes the cocktails in the Lounge. It's only $7, and it's 18 plus. We're open from 9pm until 2am. •*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•* •*•*• Upcoming "HEROES" nights in December:SATURDAY DECEMBER 19:
A Ho-Ho-"HEROES"Our Holiday Spectacular, with performances by ISOBEL VALO and ADULT ADVERTISEMENTand CD giveaways for JEFFREE STARR's outrageously wonderful "Beauty Killer" album! •*•*•*•*•and•*•*•*•*• THURSDAY DECEMBER 31:
A "HEROES" NEW YEAR'S EVEHere's the NEW YEAR'S EVE Facebook Invite. Party Favors: Hats, Noisemakers! Champagne Toast at Midnight! White Trash Buffet (...yum!)! Party like it's 1989!OPEN TIL 3AM!DJ CHRIS EWEN mixes the music - NEW WAVE, RETRO, ELECTRO, PUNKand some Old School Goth + Industrialand TERRI mixes the cocktails and helps you ring in the New Year in the Lounge. **This Once A Year Event is 21 PLUS.**ADVANCE TICKETS are ONLY $15 through TicketWeb.com. or available at the T.T.'s Box Office (with no service fee!) 6:30pm-1am (on band nights) 7:30pm-2am (on dance nights) •*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•*•* •*•*• T.T. THE BEAR'S PLACE10 Brookline Street, Cambridge MA (in Central Square). http://www.myspace.com/heroes80shttp://www.ttthebears.com Current Mood:  Slave To The Rhythm |
transgender
[ tatyanasaar ]
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7:00p |
Newcomer please refrain from gentleness
Hi, So I am new both to the online communities and to the realisation that I am even further from average than I thought previously. Have been using plural pronouns on and off for a couple of years now, mixing I/we/me/us into conversations and postings on blogs. I have not yet started down the path, as I do not want to make any steps if the final outcome cannot be achieved. I know that does not make any sense at the moment. To explain, I see many posting looking to go androgynous, or from abf to a blend. However what I would like to do is to go from assigned male to simultaneous H. As I said, it might not even be possible, but I would like to know thoughts and whether it could be, I know there is very limited space on the human body. Anyways Cheers Tatyana |
transgender
[ girl_kat ]
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1:57p |
Injection Alternatives and Their Effectiveness
Hi all .... I've posted a little here so some of you might remember me. I have been on hormones for almost 3 years now. I have had some doubts along the way but I'm still pushing along. I have been living on my own since earlier this year. Before then, I was given injections by my mother, and only gave my own a few times. Since I moved out, I, have given them to myself. But lately, mostly after the time where I hit a nerve when injecting, I've been really terrified of doing it for myself anymore..... (actually I've been scared the whole time, but I did it anyway). It's actually pretty bad. I cry when I even just think about it, it's out of character for me.... So first, I will say, I don't mind getting injections. I just don't want to give my own anymore. I would prefer injection, I think, because I've been told it is the most effective method and since it also avoids putting any more stress on the liver (I also take oral anti-androgens daily). So I would like to ask, if anyone has any ideas about what I could do. I have heard of an oral medication that dissolves on the tongue that doesn't go through the liver; I don't know how much truth is behind that, or how effective it is. Even if it works just as well I have no idea how much it costs. If there is nothing as effective as injection then, how do I find someone nearby & trans-friendly who can do it for me? I could see my mother, or go to Mazzoni, I think, but they are both 2-3 hours away. Is it unheard of to have a slightly larger dose, but take it less often (I do 1cc per 10 days now)? Then, driving so far, could be practical. Well.....I guess that's it. =\ Thank you very much in advance for any advice .... and thank you for reading. Kat. Current Mood:  anxious |
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